Salam.
It's been quite some time. Excuses? No, you don't like it. But yeah, this is the time when we're all kept occupied with preparations for the exam. And really for me-I've been kept busy with things that bother my mind.
I would honestly say that these are the times when I get to think about how it is, living on our own. Thing's aren't easy the way I thought they would be. I get to know myself better. I am opposed with challenges-some very heart-tearing, and some very pocket-draining. Haha.
It's 2.14 p.m. now. It's been raining since morning. I'm cold and alone, drawing myself out of the scene so I can see from a better point of view. I cried enough but it doesn't make things better, I know. Look, I really wish I have a car now so I can feel warm. It's really cold out here. Brr.
This blog is not a place I wish to see flooded with ramblings about my frustrations. Tests are signs that you're in His sight. This current test I am in needs me to remain calm, learn from this life I'm living and make choices after good considerations so I don't spend half of my life regretting mistakes I've done.
I want to make it a lesson learned for myself. Be cool, keep calm. Don't disregard hitches only to panic later, but spend time to look closely into an issue before you make a choice. I make choices, but up to the present I can say that I don't make the best. I make mistakes I must continue to learn from, no matter how painful it is. Or cold. :) Oh did I mention how cold it is? Freaking 15 degrees which is a lie. 15 degrees can't be THIS cold. There were those mornings with 11 degrees that didn't feel this cold. It's not even mostly cloudy according to the weather forecast. It's very cloudy with constant shower.
I'd better be getting on a bus home. It's getting dark, two hours here and my fingertips are freezing. Bye, you. take care. And remember if you feel that you're most troubled, look at me. Heh. :) I mean, look around you. And be grateful that Allah promised never to turn away from those who are patient. Be patient, friend. If you're somewhere out there thinking of quitting, remember your life is a privilege. If you cant run, walk. If you're too weary, drag your feet the way I am now. Because if I stop no one can help me up if I don't want to. Never stop. We'll smile looking at how strong we've been once it's all over. Be there for those who hate to see you fall. Your family, and friends.




